AyeTJ | ESAU (Official Music Video)
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📖 Song Inspiration:
Each time I face conflict with friends, stumble in sin, or fail, I have difficulty understanding God’s grace. Both to give grace and to receive it. I’m in a season of seeking forgiveness from those I’ve wronged, but also from those who’ve deeply hurt me. It’s easy to spiral into thinking God can’t use me because of my shortcomings, or similarly that God can’t use leaders who have failed. Looking back at the hero-villain arc in the Bible, I’m reminded that God uses weak people who fail miserably, to do unimaginable good.
My song, “Esau” is about taking God out of the MCU-sized box we’ve created. The box that says God has no power to change our sick, twisted nemesis, or that I myself have fallen too far from grace. I’ve crumpled under hardened hearts and lost hope. I’ve lost hope in people I’ve known closely, and people in general. That’s not the problem. My hope’s not in People. God calls us to “Pray for our enemies,” for a reason. When we pray for our enemies it works the miracle of forgiveness, and it guards against forming hearts of stone.
I’ll be honest, I’ve had to do some soul-searching. Especially when it comes to what I believe God can redeem. I am still in that process. Still waiting for God to redeem areas of my past. Praying for enemies and against bitterness that lingers and stains my hope. I pray this song helps you process your unforgiveness as much as it has mine.
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Credits:
Produced: @AyareProd
Mix/Master: Tanner Jordan
🎤 Lyrics:
Oh, Lord help me free my mind
If you sleep on me
Then you sleep on God
Oh, Lord help me free my mind
Feel like I’m Esau
‘Cause I done had brothers who done lied on me
Feel like I'm Jacob
Still been runnin' from the times that I cheat
Feel like I'm Cain
Hated on people who stepped on my name
Word to Able
Taught me to keep sowing’ seeds
Even when there’s defeat
Some days I dont wanna wake up
When my enemies fallin' asleep
I know my God
He can change y’all
From your face to your feet
Take ya heart to your knees
Face-to-face with your maker
Knew that this day wouldn't faze y’all
Promise this water gon’ walk up ‘n wash all the makeup
Took all my trauma and sin
It was major
Like Dame keep a Buck
Felt like a Freak,
bout time to deal
with that nature
I can’t give up the cross
Been a lame,
Been an op
Better change out this phase
Been a fake been a flop
Meditate night ‘n day
I been cravin’ you God
I done strayed from the flock
Like I’m Raisin’ Cane
20 gauge
Gettin’ shot
Broke the shell
Now I'm shocked
Can’t you tell
I’ve been lost
Feel like I’m Esau
‘Cause I done had brothers who done lied on me
Feel like I'm Jacob
Still been runnin' from the times that I cheat
Feel like I'm Cain
Hated on people who stepped on my name
Word to Able
Taught me to keep sowing’ seeds
Even when there’s defeat
Leavin’ my house
It a mess
Feel so anxious, depressed
My heart pound in chest
I got mountains
Of work on my desk
I'm so nervous
When emails
Sound urgently sent
I can't earn your respect
When you perched on your nest
Got a kink in my neck
From searching for lessons
Been told
Curses relentless
From sheep in the fold
Hurt feels so deep
When it speaks to your soul
It’s Keepin me lost
Dont know the cost
Where am I going?
Don’t know if I can cross
If it weren't for God
It’s where I put hope in
I need to revive
I know I been hopeless
Put my dreams to the side
Like I’m reading ‘bout Joseph
Loosin’ my mind
And I'm loosin’ my focus
Seein his favor
More like I'm Jonah
Caught in the whale
I know that I'm chosen
Feel like I’m Esau
‘Cause I done had brothers who done lied on me
Feel like I'm Jacob
Still been runnin' from the times that I cheat
Feel like I'm Cain
Hated on people who stepped on my name
Word to Able
Taught me to keep sowing’ seeds
Even when there’s defeat
Oh, Lord help me free my mind
Oh, Lord help me free my mind
00:00 Intro
00:15 Chorus
00:30 Verse
01:02 Chorus
01:17 Verse
01:49 Chorus
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