Im With You Ep: 5
Selenas'POV~
I guess Joe's happy since hes the father. Im happy that he is. I love Ricky but me and Joe have this thing and I cant live without him. I told Ricky that Joe was the father. He took it really well. My father was happy. I took Aria out of my arms and breast feed her. My beautiful baby that me and Joe created. So precious and she would be the key to make me and Joes relationship better.
~Next day
I went to Joe's place and it felt like home. We put Aria into the crib Kevin brought over a gift from him. Joe and I was alone...well we had some alone time. "Selena do you want to you know..." Joe said hesitantly and sucked on my neck. I moaned that feels so good. I missed that feeling from him. "So what you say?" he said.
"Yes!" I said and kissed him. He deepens it and started taking off my shirt and bra then sucking on my breast. "Oww..." I said and pushed him off away from me. "Whats wrong?" "My nipples are sore." I said covering myself. "Well we can have sex down there then." He starts taking off my jeans. "No! Just forget it. I don't feel beautiful enough for you to make love with me." I started crying.
"Sel..." He holds me and rocks me back and forth. "You are beautiful and I love you." "Your just saying that...look at me." I pulled away from him and showed him my stomach. "Strech marks! And look how fat I am!" "Selena you're not fat" he said. I think he feels annoyed with me right now because of his tone but its true I don't feel beautiful. I saw all the girls Joe had dated in my past and they are all gorgeous. Im just this fat kid.
I cried uncontrollably and Joe looks like he doesn't know what to do. All he did was hold me and kissed me all over saying 'I love you' and 'your beautiful.' I stopped crying for a little bit. Aria was crying so Joe went to see wants wrong and left me. Here in the bed crying knowing something is wrong with me. I went to the bathroom locked the door and curled up into a ball. My head hurts like hell and I don't know how to feel better.
I looked around the room and say a razor. I got up and took the razor. I looked at it for a long time. I jumped, "Selena baby, are you alright?" he knocked on the door. "Umm...yea im fine just going to take a bath to calm me down" I said in between sobs. "If you need me Im downstairs. I love you." Then his foots steps disappeared.
I threw the razor across the bathroom. I cant start cutting again. But I have this urge too I need to feel numb right now. Fuck it, im cutting! I went across the room and just sliced my wrist. My breathing started to shorten. I keep going and going and going. Then I made this huge mess. It was a pool full of blood that I was in. I threw my head back and laughed hysterically. I made a HUGE mess! Bad Selena!
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