Jacob Bellens – I Can't Live My Life Like This (lyrics video)
Out now on hfn music: Jacob Bellens – Off My Meds
https://jacobbellens.lnk.to/OffMyMeds
vinyl + digital
Off My Meds took shape over two turbulent years in Jacob’s life. Several major life events happened back to back in a very short time, and it ended up breaking him down to a point of total exhaustion. The energy needed to uphold the outer self we all need to function was no longer there, and his inner actual beliefs and values began to show themselves one by one, which was not pretty to look at. Change was inevitable, simply because the price of not changing would be much higher in the long term.
As a result, he experienced a reconnection to an inner world that had been buried and locked away since his late childhood. A period of extreme emotional highs and lows, but also blossoming creativity ensued - equally thrilling, productive, exuberant and nerve wrecking. The result is Off My Meds - an album like no other in his previous repertoire. It is a summary of the death of an intellectually constructed version of himself, originally created for selfprotection, that no longer served a purpose. And the following rebirth of a new and more emotionally authentic version that was difficult, but necessary.
The album is a pop-poem about accepting the premise of the life given to you. It is an ode to the perils of modern existence and our birthgiven right to love, laugh and cry, whatever hand we may have been dealt to begin with. Lyrically it is centered around self care and the courage to love someone and be loved in return. About taking responsibility for everything in your life instead of using your life his- tory as an excuse for not living, no matter how tragic or unique your situation might be or seem to yourself
Lyrics:
Now it’s 4 am in the morning
I lie awake and think of you
Lie awake and watch a movie
Got nothing better to do
While the rain just keeps on falling
And I wonder to myself
If noone will ever hear me calling
From down here in the wishing well
I can’t live my life like this
The pressure’s all too high
The distance when we hug and kiss
Makes me want to cry
I can feel it when i touch your lips
I can see it in your eyes
You’re looking for a scientist
And im not that type of guy
For so long I've been running
Drifting about without a plan
Saying if you want my loving
Try and catch me if you can
Like heavy hearted rocketeers
Shooting across the sky
We’re hanging from the chandeliers
About to take a dive
I can’t live my life like this
The pressure’s all too high
The distance when we hug and kiss
Makes me want to cry
I can feel it when i touch your lips
I can see it in your eyes
You’re looking for a scientist
And im not that type of guy
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