Not Lost, Not Found
music and lyrics by Devin Elise Black
Lyrics:
It's enough to drive me crazy
pull me in then shut the door
but at least you had the decency to warn me
I certainly enjoy your company, but I crave a little more
to the point that I feel like a child
And I wonder, when you met me, did you have something else in mind?
And it scares me that you're ok with this absence of love that's blind
So why don't you go, you're barely here
But i just can't leave, being alone is what I fear
and I'm starting to feel numb, like i'll never again be loved
And I'm just worn down, not lost, not found
It's like a secret and you can't tell, anyone I'm in your world
And you can't blame me for being so insecure
I love the way you make me laugh but I swear that's all we have a vertical life with you I almost prefer
And when you hold me oh so rarely, I'm suddenly at home
And your kisses the ones I'm missing, you can barely call your own
So why don't you go, you're barely here
But i just can't leave, being alone is what I fear
and I'm starting to feel numb, like i'll never again be loved
And I'm just worn down, not lost, not found
it's been two hundred days and not a thing has changed if it's not my mind that's aching it's my pride that's breaking all the times that we spent will only add to my debt, but being next to you I don't want to regret
But I want to go, when your hearts not here
But you just can't leave, you're comfortable with me
and sometimes I think, I've hooked you line and sink
But you stay indifferent, not lost, not found
And I wish you'd find me, in lost and found