Chanda Lynn- "Soon" (Full Song)
So I know that many of you struggle with having to be separate from your children. I know that many of you have lost custody and are fighting to get it back or you have split custody and it's really hard on you.
As many of you may know, I went through a difficult divorce and have 50/50 custody with my ex. I always wanted him to be a big part of their lives as my father never was in mine and my ex is a very present father. But it doesn't make it any less difficult to be separate from them, it doesn't feel natural and it's really, really hard. I have almost non-stop anxiety when I'm not with them. It's lonely, it hurts and I know that their lives changed drastically and it's still hard for them to understand.
In the beginning of all of my divorce, it was a whirlwind. I was publicly attacked, wicked lies were told about me and I was slandered. I never once attacked back, but it was really rough. That wasn't the most difficult part though, the most difficult part was knowing that because I chose to leave my ex, I took my kids' lives and flipped them upside down. They'd never been separate from him or me before. I left because I knew my relationship would never be healthy, but I still carry the guilt of separating my kids from their parents.
I wrote a song called "Soon", describing how it feels to be separate from your children. I write constantly when they're not with me. I wrote it not only from my perspective, but also what I imagine it's like for people who are permanently separated from their children. It's an underrepresented topic and I know many of you feel alone in this. I may not understand full separation, but I do understand some of the feelings associated with this.
I hope that the vulnerability in this song helps you heal in some way. I'll be putting it out soon ❤
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