P.s.
My mom is still a good person whatever she did to me. I am the oldest child in the family and she was going through depression all through my early childhoos (something happened when I was about 6yo). She was much easier on my lil sister. I can't say I actually hate her. I love my mother no matter what and will do anything if that makes her happy. But there were some situations which I'm not ready to tell about yet I remember and can't let go, even when I never was mad at any of this and forgave her right away. I also understand that the amount of work and education I get is good 4 me. I just can't handle this much and get punished & controlled on almost all my social media and movement around (they tag me so they always see wherever I am)
Sorry for venting again