MALAI - System
Lyrics:
I walk down the road at night, alone
Pondering about everything, I’m prone
To be obsessed by my thoughts, it’s kinda wrong
That I think too much about everything, I know
That I’m gonna cope with my own anxiety
came to my dorm, it’s night, mourn cry maybe
To get a sense of relief, I don’t fall asleep until I see the sun rising, so I be
come more sleepy, relaxed
Lecture’s at 10, for 4 hours perhaps
I’m not gonna think and distinguishing nap from reality will be so difficult, ha
Seeing a dream of me being so happy
Achieving and feeling and dreaming is sad be
cause soon as you get that it was just a dream
dress up and go to the lecture you see
Many people, that excite you
It is different when you try to
Build up a relationship but
Nah
They don’t get you, on this lecture start
Trying to listen to teacher to lessen your pitiful state of the mind, and you’re pissed off
Because of the fact that she isn’t your girl
And you’re feeling the lack of her love
Although there was actually nothing between us
I have no idea why I feel so happy to see ya face and you’re just so nice
I wish I just hugged you and looked at your eyes
But you are not getting my feelings, alright
But why do you start to behave like this, why?
When I am just being honest and straight
I’m not playing games, don’t want me, just say
When I was little, I did all I needed to be the most diligent,
I promised myself to be the unbeatable
Make everyone see that I’m killing myself to become that miracle
However, I never supported this kind of activity
Disobedience seemed to me very seductive, but I did not want to be naughty
Cause my parents were earning money
Apparently those days were not sunny
I didn’t wanna be another trouble in their life, see
So I tried to be the most diligent person in my class, there you go, pass, all the tests and shut up, fast
Okay, was it worth it?
I’m really patient, working
My ass off to achieve something when I need it, I’m first in
Almost every competition when it comes to working hard, working hard for biggest system in the world which’s built on us
University, exams
I am following the path
Which will guarantee my skills to benefit the world, a chance
To forget about the risk, and educate yourself a bit, then become fluent in a field, for now, forget about your dreams
And get a degree, cause it feels so wrong to ruin the expectations
The society casts on you, they get so angry when outside you’re slightly changing