i'm sorry.
This piece is a portion of a very special personal project called HONOR, where I make peace with my past.
I wrote these words close to 10 years ago now. They felt so raw that I couldn’t really look at them for a decade. Lately though, they’ve been whispering in the back of my mind. Finally ready to be spoken & let go of.
I’ve learned that sitting in the shame is part of the healing process. Part of the release of it. Part of my personal reclamation.
I never expected for this poem to unfold like this - but I am so grateful it did 🙏.
Hok - I can’t thank you enough for taking this idea under your wing & bringing it to heights I could not have even imagined. Every moment of the choreographic process with you is something I will cherish. I learned so much from not only your impeccable eye & attention to detail, but also your patience & love for the craft itself 💜.
Dancers, thank you for holding space for me to be vulnerable & use my voice. I have so much respect for each of you as movers but am so grateful to get to get to know you a little closer as humans, too. To get to sing for you in rehearsal & work with you on something that is so close to my heart feels like a dream-come-true 🥺✨.
Kalyne, thank you for capturing this piece with so much care. It’s not easy to make these shots look effortless & I am so happy with how it all emerged. Studio B at TMILLY studio really makes the perfect canvas 🎨.
This song is now available on all streaming platforms.
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2nVTOu...
Thank you for listening, watching, & feeling with me 🫀.
written by natalya z
directed & choreographed
by hok & natalya z
filmed by kalyne lionheart
danced by
natalya z
jasmine mason
adriano bettinelli
derion loman
kana tune
billy mustapha
riley roberts
connor pierce
maryann chavez
filmed at TMILLY Studio B
Would you rather get your heart broken, or break someone’s else’s?
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