Thomas Hadley - Killian (Official Music Video)
Lyrics:
There's a guy I looked up to
Lets just call him Killian.
He did some awful things
I used to think we was brilliant.
Everyone would dog on me
He'd say jesus is lord
And they'd ask "what's wrong with you"
cause I was addicted to porn.
And I know God says all sin is equal but how come that means he and I are both evil?
Yeah I really liked to see woman dance
but he liked to see teenagers undress
What's wrong with the picture?
What do you think?
That someone we are supposed to seek
guidance from needs to be on a leash.
A straight jacket doesn't deserve to be free.
I used to love you and your family. What was wrong with me.
So I'm hurt. I'm pained. I feel strained as I sit and I write because I have this fight in my brain.
Should I forgive because God forgives
Or should should I just stay to myself and say screw it.
But honestly what's funny is he doesnt know I know
everything for him was always a facade a show
Tried to teach me like I needed to grow
You're the one who needed to aim higher, bro.
Uh oh. you say it was a mistake it wouldn't happen again
but turned out you were the one that was addicted
and I used to listen to you and believed your words
but you're like Red-Mist and shot Hit-Girl
you were one of the only few in the world
who actually made me feel better when I felt torn
But honestly that's why it pains me so much
because now in this race you've been left in the dust
and I know the word says not to judge
but your family did me when I was young
and i know i shouldnt fight fire with fire
but right now I'm too angry to feel higher
and I know if I were a bigger man I'd forgive
but I apologize I dont feel bad a little bit
not for you today
but for all the people you made follow your ways
I feel bad for them. They are God's children
you were supposed to help not ruin
So I'm really not sure if I can ever forgive.
Because in this world i have my own growing kids.
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