Today I fell off the wall. A lot.
Today I fell off the wall. A lot. I spent 2.5 hours on this route, the weekly Boulder Problem at my gym. I know exactly what I need to do. I just lacked the strength for the final two moves, one of which is a horrible pistol squat on the teeniest tiniest foot hold. I tried so many different positions to push myself up, but it didn't happen.
However, I loved every minute and only stopped because work was pressing. From barely balancing on the first move, to sliding across the wall with ease, my progress was quick and I felt in control. I must have done this route on repeat at least 50 times. It felt meditative and powerful to tune into my breathe and body with focus.
It also inspired thoughts around consistency and showing up for our passions. I don't find it hard to fit training into my life because it is a top priority for work and wellbeing, as well as being one of my biggest joys. Over many years I have conditioned myself so that being active is a habit that I can't live without.
Admittedly, the quality of my training can sometimes suffer due to what is going on in my head or heart. But you know what? That's okay! I know my WHY. I show up to give 100%, no matter what that looks like, and celebrate each time I have honoured my mission.
Whether training or something else, if you have agreed with yourself that you are going to start/do/learn/be something, the key thing is to stop thinking and start doing. No one else can do it for you. Start small. Turn your back on your excuses. Step into the space you are gifting yourself. Show up unapologeticly. Breathe deep. Smile. And if you can, later on at least, surround yourself by people that celebrate your successes and push you to honour your dreams.
This is a vulnerable process. You will fall. But being dedicated to yourself means getting back up and staying committed to the process, even if there is no end in sight.
What are you waiting for?