Wiked - 11/12 (Official Audio)
Wiked - 11/12 (Official Audio)
Lyrics:
Speak my mind I’m tryna find the words to say
So I’m sorry if this one feels like its all over the place
Please just feel me
Going through depression I confess
I hope that you listen as I get this off my chest
80 hours past grandad no longer alive
80 hours past and yet I still have not cried
For my family im putting all my strength into my stride
But I’m way too fucking numb I swear im so desensitised
When I was a younger we would venture throughout London it was us against the world
come the sun or come the thunder
He saw my potential before anybody else so I had hoped to make him proud
He was the reason for my hunger
Started growing older and the distance sadly grew
Then I saw success
I don’t think he even knew
Last advice he fucking gave me is make your intentions true
So I told him that I loved him just to make sure that he knew
Now I’m
Managing my bouts like I was Eddie Hearn
Swear my life’s in Smither eens you’d think my name Mr Burns
Every loss I took was like a lesson learnt
Take into account all of the bridges burnt like Usher Ima let em burn
They’ll come back around I know
I been growing hope it shows
Ima firefly, in the darkest nights still will glow
Know I made mistakes and for all these mistakes I will atone
I’ve been making progress to be better reaping what I sow
I try fighting but no longer have the energy
Say some words and they will treat it like a felony
Step into my shoes and some would end up in a cemetery
What I have gone through I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy
I’m pleading
I can’t take this shit no more like mentally I’m bleeding
Light is getting dimmer life no longer has a meaning
1 person I do this for just ended up deceasing
I feel my faith decreasing
I’m scared of what will happen if I break and see my hope die out
Tightness in my chest I hope I don’t die now
Been in autopilot swear my soul's signed out
Scars becoming part of me so I just don’t cry now
But the 1 thing that I will say if you have loved ones then hug them
Trust them
Don’t be shy to tell them that you love them
Life is fucking short there’ll be a time you can say nothing
So make sure while they’re there that you at least just show them something
Chances there are plenty
But as time goes by I’m feeling all of this regret that I have fucking missed so many
Through the times we didn’t have a penny
We would still have everything because we had each other and the telly
Showing my emotions something I don’t do the best
All my exes surely can attest
So I put it all in writing that’s the way that I can truly say it best
I just had to get pain out of chest
Rest in peace I know you’re blessed