Throw me in the water [/Last vent]
After losing three of my greatest friends in my life I've decided that there is nothing for me here. This place brings up to many memories that break my heart, I don't want to forget them but I wish to move on... So this will be my goodbye, and my last vent to you all.
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Why, why did you have to leave me? You where the light in all this darkness, why did your death have to be so sudden, you were fine and then you were gone, I'm still trying so hard to get over your death but I am still in disbelief that you are gone. There is no one like you, and there is no longer anyone who can counsel me. Your death was probably the hardest to get over, because I am still trying to get over it...
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I don't understand what happened, you seemed like the happiest person I know. And then I get a call, and I find that you took your own life, I've known you for 10 years, I am so crushed that you didn't seek help, or call me, and now there's nothing anyone can do about it. Your recent passing has brought up so many emotions, that I can't seem to mend.. You're gone, and I miss you.
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I want you to be happy, even if it's without me in your life, which I've come to terms finally that you no longer want me in your life. I honestly don't understand what I did wrong, or what I said, but it doesnt matter anymore, because you're gone. You were my rock, my stability, and when you weren't there when I needed you the very last time, I realize I've must have done something to deserve your silence. I feel like you've also passed away, because you cut ties. But I feel worse because I know you are still there, but I can't talk to you, and I would give anything to talk to my friends who've passed, and that's why I've tried so hard to get in touch with you. In a way I still feel you are there for me even when you really aren't. You have always been such a true friend, even when sometimes I wasn't. But I'm bettering myself little by little everyday... I miss you.
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After losing these three people I no longer feel the same about life the way I used to, everything I used to love is no longer an interest to me, I feel dull, and less passionate about the things in life.. I feel like I am going no where, and I don't know who I truly am, but that's why I have to leave this behind. Goodbye to those couple of you who still pay attention, it was a great journey.