You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.
Yeah, I stayed. I stayed, because every time you threw a brick at my head, or said I smelled, it hurt; but it could never hurt more than every day of my life just being me! I stayed because I thought, if anyone can change me, can make me... not me, it was you! The greatest kung fu teacher in all of China!
I'm not a big fat panda, I'm the big fat panda!