[MMD] DORIME 🙏 (Warning: Loud)
Shitty meme animation is shitty. 😓
This isn't something I normally do, so I apologize for making something different than what people subscribed to me for.
Everyone mostly knows me for the silly animations I would do.
This is mostly a vent animation that I've been on and off working on since around May to November of last year.
I have other animations I haven't finished over the years either.
My mental and physical health really kills off any motivation I have.
I'm burned out, exhausted, but I have someone who tries to help motivate me in my life now.
The fact this very special person shows genuine excitement and adores what I do is amazing to me, and is probably the only reason I even bothered to upload this.
This vent is mostly about my overall mental health due to traumatic events that occurred from 2018 to early 2020.
I should say since late 2016 since that's when I was manipulated (groomed) into a relationship with a monster, but I say 2018 because that's when I started to see what this monster was doing behind my back the whole time, but he kept denying everything, and still does despite there being evidence against his actions.
It took me a long time to see what was really happening right under my nose, to put all those pieces together.
This monster thought he could hide all that from me.
2020 was the year I figured everything out.
He tried to groom two of my friends who were underage at the time, one of them even telling me how he told them about a girl he was cheating on me with from another country.
This girl he told them about was also underage at the time.
( They're still together, and she is brainwashed by him and tries to defend him for the things he's done to kids by saying he wasn't in the right mindset and saying he should be forgiven.
Both of them have been spreading lies and calling the victims crazy. Including calling me crazy for speaking out against the things he's done not only to me, but to MINORS. )
That's when I stopped trying to talk to the monster.
I was finding out who he really was, and I was done with his manipulation.
Later that year a victim spoke out and shared to me the disgusting pictures he sent to them when they were only 12 to 13 years old, and explained to me how they were groomed by him.
This monster grooms girls/kids with vulnerabilities, ones with bad childhoods and mental illnesses.
Doesn't matter to him if they identified as another gender or sexuality, he always found a way to groom them by finding their vulnerabilities.
Like he did to me... preying on my trauma, preying on the fact I'm autistic, and that I identify as ace/aro at the time. ( I'm still part of the ace spectrum btw, just not aro anymore. )
This monster even sent a family member after me on FB to harass me with violence against me and the victims. Saying that she'll make me "the disabled that I claim to be."
Day in and day out I cried and vomited over this monster from extreme panic attacks due to his abuse.
Day in and day out I questioned if I was the one who ruined our relationship, even attempted suicide several times, one nearly being successful.
Day in and day out I kept trying to fix him and the relationship.
2020 was the year I finally saw through his fake promises and broke free thanks to the friends who came forward and told me what he did to them and the girl he was hiding from me.
That monster sucked the life right out of me, and I am trying so hard to heal from all of it.
This vent animation depicts my rise towards a better future.
I have risen to regain ALL the online friends I thought I lost forever due to his manipulation.
They are here for me now more than ever before.
I have even risen to gain real life friends.
I have made more than I ever could imagine in only one year.
I have gained a REAL loving partner who takes care of me and doesn't use me for their own benefit.
I have found REAL love, the kind I should have been given years ago.
I have risen above the one who used and abused me.
I am finding that I am now starting to go somewhere with my life, even if it is just the beginning.
I have risen while that monster remains the same.
I will continue to rise despite all the nightmares of him I have to face each and every night.
I will continue to rise despite my disabilities.
I will rise, while that monster falls.
One way or another, justice will come for the things he has done and continues to do to kids.
I hope that day comes, because I have done all that I could to stop him by reporting him.