Eternity does not faze me. My failures are uncorrectable, bound to my skull like a rusted chain. Time has weakened the chain, but it has done the same to me. I can feel it crawl inside of me, compressing my lungs, locking me in place. No amount of effort will lead to a remedy. It all means nothing if the target audience is no longer in this world. Searching for a perfect solution will only hurt me more, as death is unchanging.
However, I have a faint idea. I’ll place the burden on myself. Abandon the broadcast. Invert it. Zap my brain to the very limit. Distort everything I see, everything I hear, everything I feel, everything I know. Reality bores me. Living without you, knowing that I was the one who took you away, has ruined me. A forcefully implanted mindscape is my true wish. Then, I’ll meet a semblance of you. Inside the scrambled artificial scenery is a sliver of happiness.
Given previous results, long-term use is unstable. So what? I see no point in implementing emergency termination. If it all goes according to plan, I’ll feel relief from the pressure on my skull by residing in a saccharine realm. If the world collapses into nightmares, it’ll be what I deserve. Either way, this pain won’t be felt alone.
We can forever be test subjects of our own volition.
Released on 10/3/2025.
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00:00 永劫回帰 (Eternal Return)
12:11 傀儡 (Puppet)
19:23 偽の秋 (False Autumn)
24:54 プライベートガーデン (Private Garden)
31:00 夢の世界 (A World of Dreams)
42:23 高次脳機能障害 (Higher Brain Dysfunction)
48:47 薔薇色の妄想 (Rose-Tinted Delusions)
54:16 ≠ (アンイコール) (Unequal)