motivation
"who's in your imagination"
vent layout and video, if you do not care, do not read
my yearly motivation seems to have run its course the past 2 months and there's nothing more frustrating then having everything so close to your grasp, but never the reach to complete anything.
this thought alone does not help my mental process in the slightest as someone that loves to get shit finished. i can not express enough how much my motivation for anything means to me when i know damn well i can get anything done if i just try, but that seems to be the hardest part.
it sucks though, there is no such thing as "a little bit of motivation" to me, i need full hyperfixation on what i'm doing or it will never get done, its the worst thing about me really but, woe is me
at least i got some stuff on my plate this year, there's always that, and hopefully ill hit a milestone somewhat soon, that might boost my motivation aswell, just a thought.
if this continues ill see you in 8 months ig