i try to much thank you know to all of the people who cares all the people who have been with me day 1 i been alone fighting well people who been there for me has said no you need to stop and understand life better, so went in class for the first time before that i was in a room then someone called A was in some where else and t was off what are my main staff, so then i must go in the class bec of staff im lucky i came out the car... i went into class day 1 liked it so day 2 i did the same thing then day 3 changed my life meating trin on the way who i dont thank more and love more then my own dad talked to more people on the way and no one will understand the shit place i was in at the fucking time before going into class i was so fucking bad im so lucky to be here i really had nothing to lose at the time so i was like what the fuck is the fucking point if im in my bedroom no one give 2 fucks about me no one fucking did no one every body i knew shit on me and no one will understand how much that fucking hit me in the heart and head that made my life so much fucking harder then something said to me get your shit up this happends you need to just step away from but at this time i didnt want to fucking be here no even push to be happy i was so fucking low and now im so fucking happy bec of one person name trin thank you im just lost the past weeks has been fucking mad into being in class meeting new people and then 1 moring my dad said guinea pig is die i didnt have time to think about it then now just got news that im going to be a big brother and i just feel so down again for some reason but it happends i 100% learned that life gets better if you want it to my life was a fucking hell zone now it's someones dream but my head is still fucked and might be till i die but just thank you trin you dont understand how much you mean to me i think im so lucky sometimes i think and im like is this a fucking dream or a nightmare how fast shit happends it's crazy im just saying this bec im fucking so lucky and if you need help call 101 i get your way or text me email [email protected] im telling you killing yourself is not the way only in the momment