First one I believe
Lyrics:
Every day I just feel so much, god fuckin dammit i just bleed so much,
I know i plead too much but i need your touch, cause without it I wont be someone
Wake up I wish I was dead, you were there when noone cared,
now my lifes full of despair, shaking and scared, i wasnt prepared,
THESE DEMONS ARE ALL IN MY HEAD
NEVER EXPRESSED, IT'S ALWAYS CONSTRAINED,
THESE THOUGHTS ARE JUST HAUNTING MY BRAIN, I JUST CANT EXPLAIN
All of this pain, going through each and every single one of my veins
The past is done, I cant change that,
I think it's time for me to just face facts,
All red is gone, my heart aches black,
I might just go and blow my brains blank,
coughing why cant It just end? gunshot gunshot gunshot
STOP, STOP IT, JUST GO AWAY, PLEASE!
pain...pain...pain..pain....pain...pain..NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME
I CANT ESCAPE, THIS IS MY FATE,
WHY CANT THINGS JUST BE SO SIMPLY EXPLAINED,
WHY ARE YOU FADING, FLOATING EVADING, GOING ESCAPING,
YOU KNOW I CANT TAKE IT,
I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE, I JUST WANNA LIVE WITH EASE,
I JUST WANNA LIVE AND BREATHE, I JUST WANNA LOVE MY QUEEN.