Creep ✘
"What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here."
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Sometimes I get really dark days and start to ponder the idea of suicide, but then I stop and realize how ridiculous and wasteful that really is. Most of all, how unfair it is to those close to me, who would care.
It's just times like this where that darkness needs to find its way out through a video or a song. Then that weight becomes a little bit lighter and it's easier to think more positively about things. It's easier when my head is clear and not as foggy, I guess.
And I know in time that pain like that eventually passes on the longer you give it time to. And being around loved ones helps as well ^.^
Things have just been difficult and I've sort of lost my purpose lately. I thought I knew what I wanted to do for years but it's begun to fall apart and I haven't played guitar for months because of that. Not sure how to restore it, but I'm sure it will work out somehow eventually like all things do ^.^
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