Purpose and Anxiety- What I have to give
I was nervous about getting lost going to Open Daycare for the first time in a looong time. Taking that path through the woods brought back memories and feelings of when I first started vlogging, way back in 2018. So much has happened since then, so many hundreds of videos edited and uploaded.
It was fun going through old footage and reliving adorable moments from the twins when they were two years old. What an awesome thing, to be able to look back.
Dealing with anxiety is tough- just wondering- is this a normal feeling, or am I making a bigger deal about this thing that I should be? Fear and anxiety can be such life suckers, and it feels so good to be able to push through and have something to show for it.
5 years ago I talked about why I started this channel, what I wanted to give and who I wanted to be. I had worried regularly throughout that it wasn't enough. That it was a part of the channel but that creatively I had more to give elsewhere. So it's been a journey of discovery to realize (again and again with encouragement from friends) that I am enough, vlogging is enough, and what I have to give is enough. And worth celebrating!
Here's the podcasts I mentioned- Chris aka That Mental Ginger
/ @thatmentalgingershow
Here is Chris of @CJShopland_Art and his up and coming podcast
/ @redyellowginger