Goodbye 2018
Hello guys...
i just rushed this small edit to say Goodbye to 2018 and say hello 2019.
I wont edit that much anymore, im trying myself in music and beatboxing.
I want to dedicate this edit to everyone who was on my side this year and helped me through my hardest times.
Thank you Ded for being my bro since i came into KU, you were always on my side whatever happenend and you always helped me when i was
mentally fucking up.
Thank you Julian, Joe and Josef, my best friends since over 10 Years. No matter what kind of dumb things im doing or saying, you laugh about it
and accept me the way iam... thank you guys.
Thank you Ovidiu, for beeing my lost romanian brother. You understand me alot and helped me go through the hardest time in my life.
Thank you all of KureijiUnit for being a family, a place i can always retreat to.
Thank you Selina, Paul and Nathanel. Even tho i was half year gone we still play together every day and you 3 make me laugh like never before
in the last 4 months, thanks.
Thank you Stefan for being my Ehrenbruder lol haha
Thank you Chrxsgfx for writting with me in the hardest time of my life, supporting me and cheering me up.
BIG THANK YOU to my family. They accepted and helped me with my mentally unstable behaviour, drove me every month, 2 Hours long to the psychatrist.
And helped me whenever i needed help. Im stubborn and ultra shy and thats why i was neglecting them my whole life. But im happy i can finally talk
with my family without problems.
and... thank you to the most important person in my life.
If you read this i want to tell you, im not mad at you and i dont hate you. Im broken, sad and dissapointed but i guess every person would be.
I want to thank you for the beautiful times we had, the beautiful memories. You showed me that i can be loved, you showed me what happiness and
love means bc i never felt this in my life before. You accepted me the way iam, even tho i have my mental problems you always supported me.
Thank you for giving me the most beautiful 15 months in my life, thank you for making me the person iam today. I wish it would have ended in a different
way but thats life... and thank you for saving me from my suicide last year. Even tho i lost the most important person in my life im still trying
to go on. It hurts, it fucking hurts bc alot of shit happenened this year to me and 2019 wont look any better, i know that already.
But im still fighting bc there are people in my life who love and support me...
I had several mental breakdowns while editing and writting this here bc i was going through every good and bad thing what happenend this year.
Call me a emo or whatever but i just wanted to open up and tell everyone how thankfull iam to have them in my life. I can be really weird,
my jokes are often immature and i often behave like a kid, but im doing this bc life is already stressfull enough. Atleast for some hours per day
you should go all out and say everything you want and have fun... Even tho im smilling so much doesnt mean im happy... its for me the easiest
to fake a smile, if i want i can be serious as fuck. Barely any person that has something to do with me
saw me being serious, its bc i dont want to spread bad vibes and im only serious when im alone.
Well... im sorry if i forgot to mention someone but i already wrote way too much.
I wish you the best for 2019... peace out
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