Subject Illuminant - The Petal Relapse (Instrumental Version)
Hello once again everybody!!! Starting this month, I have for you a song I had a ton of creative intuition working on over the past few days. I hope you all enjoy and stay tuned for another track later in the month!!!
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(Song/Vent Warning): As much as I don't like getting too personal with my lyrics, this song ended up seeping some personal struggles and feelings into it.
This is a song about as you may have guessed, the topic of relapse. Alongside this topic, it delves into deception and betrayal contributing to the aforementioned relapse. Rose petals being slowly plucked one by one is the way I wanted to express this. The roses symbolize memorable progress, the results of progress too. They are slowly becoming more and more empty as each one is plucked of progress from outer sources. Eventually, there will be no pedals on the rose, and it's onto the next one.
I won't go into much detail here, though I will disclose some closure I am seeking in my life currently. With my altering mindset and overall mental health, I am working to find myself in the world while also juggling all of these sudden transitions throughout my early and current years. I'd be lying if I said I was fine, but that's simply how I look on the outside for people who don't know any better. Even some people do seem to not understand, and that leads to misunderstanding, and sometimes betrayal to the abnormal. I see myself as abnormal, certainly not something I am proud of.
That's what I hope to get across with this one for people in the future. With all of the trial and error and traumas of the past, it leaves its scars on the mind like it or not. People need to see that if you keep kicking down on someone, it's not going to change the fact that you plucked the petals, whatever those motives may be.
I have wronged, and done things I am not proud of, but to make that an excuse to dehumanize someone like me is only going to make me relapse back into bad habits, never breaking this cycle. To those who wronged me and continue to, I hope to find closure one day for myself. For what becomes of you I will not be dwelling on, but rather learning from it.
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And that just about covers it. Sorry on the long text, needed to get it off my chest. Either way, I hope you enjoy the song and find something out of it's story. Much love to everyone, and I look towards working on more projects soon. Have a wonderful day.
See ya!!!
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Download song: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1wFnL...