Subject Illuminant - Intentionally (Official)
((WARNING)) - Flashy/shaky visual warning
Hello everyone!!! It wasn't all that long since I last uploaded, but I figured I would upload this song for this month in the meantime too!!!
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(Song [vent warning] ): This song I wasn't initially planning on releasing at all (if ever,) but I figured I would, given that I feel it will be best to keep this on record.
From the beginning of this channel, it's no surprise that there have been issues surrounding my early life up until now, but I now feel things are changing for the better. For reasons of privacy, I will not disclose all information here, but this is a song surrounding a vent I've been meaning to discuss for a while regarding primarily family I've genuinely grown to dislike over the years. As recent time passed, I've been emotionally/physically drained by them (not all of them of course, but definitely a notable few,) but now I have that ultimatum to leave all of that behind, not much of any other choice that is.
I'm going with it, and I feel it is better now than never with them, to cut the drama (which I hate) out of my life. They give this spectacle that they are actually there to help with promises and support, only to be scheming behind people this whole time, covering it up, love-bombing, and guilt-tripping. In reality, it's just for their own self-image and virtue, to cover their asses.
I am certainly not a good person, I never in my life said I was, but at least I don't go around acting like it, because there are a lot of them in this world who act like they are shining examples with answers, while at the same time keeping those toxic habits.
I've seen what they do to others and how they talk behind the rest of my family's back. Hell, I didn't get much chance to see them all that much throughout my teens because they didn't like them. Instead, I was in the back seat, hearing them rant and rave about how they are the bad ones, and not them. Only to act supportive when they actually speak with them. It's FAKE, and I've seen it my whole life with them and people with similar traits.
The cracks will eventually show, and they have at times.
At some point, maybe they were helping and meant well, but faking it is not how you do it. Sometimes with family, it always comes down to jealousy, even spite in their minds. And at this point, I'm giving them a taste of that.
But right now, I'm getting away from it all, that's not what I want to grow into. I will not follow their poor example. They know who they are, and I am done with them. They are genuine leeches, older than me, but still are none the more righteous, very few in the world are.
End of the vent, stopped myself before I ended up writing a cracked manifesto, haha
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(A small intermission): So with that in mind, and other circumstances that force my hand, I will be taking a couple months off of uploading for now. I have too much going on right now to prioritize recreation. Real life gets in the way, and that is partially why I am making this upload. I'll of course return, I just have to take care of some things along the way.
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And as always, that concludes this update. I hope you all enjoy the track, and just enjoy these days. We'll have rough ones, good ones, sometimes mostly the former. Take care, everyone!!!
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My Email: [email protected]
Download song: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Av5s...