Tech N9ne - PTSD ft. Shawn Elliot (Warrior Built Emcee Contest Track)
Here's my submission to Tech N9Ne's/Strange Music's contest. Since anxiety disorders include PTSD, I decided to share my journey through anxiety and the spiritual path it led me on. Maybe the lyrics can be of comfort or guidance to someone else. Check out https://strangemusicinc.net/warrior_b... if you'd like to submit your own verse!
Lyrics:
There was a moment when the pain achin inside my brain
Left every moment awake grave and anxiety stained
Trapped in these walls made of illusion
Im gaining contusions by banging my head on em to break free but Im losin
What a paradox, Im chained up with a pair of locks that I made
Out of the very thoughts that I thought woulda gave me air to walk and be saved
What a relief for me to find that a mere belief can lock and enslave
Cause I can change those like I change clothes so the pain goes and Im free baby!
So here we go, I got the will power that God gave me
Focus that on my freedom and the rest about to be all gravy
Who am I but "I Am"? My identity is a myth
Cause when the name goes and the moods move and the body changes and shifts
And the jobs lost and the girl's gone and the car needs to be fixed
Only one thing 'll remain, that's this consciousness that I is
So I let go of that nonsense
choose freedom of conscious
Cause I dont wanna be at the moment of my death, thinking about all the regrets, so I promise I dont let this eat me alive