Roseblast ft. Kasane Teto - What I Am | Darkness Looks Delicious
Track 4 on Darkness Looks Delicious
Credits:
Rose Redfern - Composition, Arrangement, Mixing, Lyrics
Kasane Teto - Lyrics
AmisArt - Album Cover Art
Lyrics:
As the hours fly
I keep on reviewing my time
In this hollow mess of mine
Twisting all these lies
Scathing mind, how am I alive?
In this hollow mess of mine
I cannot distress this fight
I'm so broken
I'm so scattered
I just let myself be torn alive
All these passions
All my memories
They're just waiting for me in the dark
But I can't let them, let them, drag me across the floor
Let them, let them, hold me against the door
Pull myself against the tide and realize
"I can do anything, I can do anything!"
But who would care? Who'd give a damn?
It's not like I'll be seen for more than what I am
Albeit deserved, it's nothing new
A used up fraction of what I went through
It doesn't matter when your conscience hates on you
I once thought there was peace
Undistilled harmony, but it all
Changed when my mind foresaw that belief
"Oh, what a bad guy!"
Well, I'm not taking that!
Even if praying on a change will come steadily and brief with time
What did I do?
Did I do wrong?
Was it all me?
I'm not that strong, and yet I still walk around here.
(You're more than strong, you're powerful!)
(Don't drag yourself down, please!)
Urges to stop it all, be nothingness, but I can't deny...
What's the matter? What's the matter?
Can't be telling you something fun
Overstimulating pain, took it all to heart!
Quit the chatter, quit the chatter!
Hyperventilating breaths
Puking out colorful noises, it bleeds right out my skull!
I walk with my head down!
Something's different now...
(Stop, it's not that bad...)
But who would care? Who'd give a damn?
It's not like I'll be seen for more than what I am
What will it take? To be myself?
No matter what, I'm forced to be somebody else
What was the choice? What are your thoughts?
Take a good look, I'm forced to be someone I'm not
I just want someone to believe in what I wanted to be
But as I try to seek comfort, I only get dirty looks
Even worse, looking at my face is like a sight at disgrace
The mirror casts a perspective of what I mean
It's okay.
"I can't feel"
That's what you said, right?
I fall, and I fall
Pushing tons of boulders up a hill
I'm lost, just lost
Despite all the thoughts, I still believe that
I don't have a place in life!
(Truth will seize you at the sight)
Why won't I be left to die?
(You should know that it was)
Leave, there's too much risk
(My choice to stay by your side here)
I know I deserve this
(I won't leave out of disdain)
Can't wake up...
(Please get up...)
Can't wake up...
(Hear my voice...)
Can't wake up...
(Please wake up...)
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