J-R3MI - "Introspection"
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Written by Jeremy Barnes. Produced by Half Note.
Track 8 from “The College Chronicles.” Listen to the full album here: • J-R3MI - "The College Chronicles" (Deluxe)...
Verse 1:
Bottom of the barrel. The bucket don’t want to fill.
But I’m on the come up, so I say fuck it and kill
What I put my mind to, and I write to myself
Before I put it on the mic, and I spill
My guts on the page, rip it up before I say
I’m a man who’s trapped in-side of his own brain. This is my hell.
Welcome to my world.
Let me give you a tour; it’s a whirlwind I swirl.
Hook:
Trapped in my brain,
Feelin’ my pain.
I try to let go,
But I don’t know.
(I don’t know, man)
Verse 2:
I’m filled with doubts. I re-route the route that I take.
I trace the roots of my pain to my heart and my brain.
I think and feel too much; I need a change to the pace
On the road I’m windin’ down. Gotta step on the brakes.
I’m a walking contradiction. I’m a fiction who fakes
His confidence like counterfeits. Amount to shit, but I say
I’m a beast. I’m just a dog on his leash.
Gotta release myself to be free,
See a preacher to be
More in line with myself and to summon my chi.
Pray to Jesus Christ that I find balance in life.
That’s what I need for the peace.
But can I reach it in time?
Become the wise man before I shut both my eyes, lay down and die?
I don’t know if I might,
So I lie down and cry myself to sleep at night,
Thinkin’ about my plight.
I’m a blight to myself.
It’s a sight to be held.
I’m one of a kind but too many things at once, all trapped in a shell.
I need to crack it and tell
The little kid inside to rise from his hell,
Spread his wings and fly right offa the shelf.
Hook:
(I’m) trapped in my brain.
(I’m) feelin’ my pain.
I try to let go,
But I don’t know.
Verse 3:
So I do what I think will help me outta this place.
I talk to people I trust and put my pen to the page.
I try to change what I can; I’m startin’ small, but I may
Grow into a better me,
Drop bad habits and gain
A healthier lifestyle,
Ease these thoughts and the strain.
Lift this weight off my shoulders,
Feelin’ free as a crane.
I take this leap of faith
And tell myself it’s okay,
Feel this way on dark days,
Then return to the rays.
Gotta look on the bright side
And remember my name.
I’m the Master MC. Call me J-R3MI.
I’m proud of who I am,
And that’s an easy task when I got my man (Half Note On Tha Track)
To spit these muthafuckin’ raps to.
Lay the beat to rest and let the fans do the rest.