Jackorider- Mirror (Prod. Chxse Bank)
[lyrics]
I can't begin to fathom what the fuck I've been searching for
Saying I want friends this but friends ain't something searchable
And I've been wanting bands but a band ain't something valuable
And I've been making plans making plans just to imagine those
Times where my head space is greatness and time don't feel wasted my pace has been slower since my mind went vacant the voices keep fading my friends left me wasted and I just can't take it I'm lonely and anxious
my mind it keeps racing bout thoughts of enragement, my doubt and my fear makes me scared of engagement with people and people I'm socially anxious and I hate that this time keeps feeling like it changes
I'm so damn impatient I hate you and hate this I hate that my body is stupid and brainless, I'm weak and I'm lazy I'm fat and I'm ape shit
I'm lonely and crazy and no one can change it
I'm stuck in my thoughts just shifting and rotating
My minds filled with judgment due to being anxious
My hearts on the pavement I'm scared I won't make it
The sun burns my eyes yet I still get to baking
I'm high as a cloud
And ain't nobody stopping me I ain't coming down
Now put me down, right down to sleep
I pray the angels, my soul to keep
For if I die, before I wake
The demons guide, me so far away
You see me know? You see my face?
You see my demons, they take my place
For if I hide, before you see
My broken eyes, full of decite
So if I cry, you see me weep
For if I lie you see my teeth
I could not lie, if it meant breaking your heart
I wouldn't try, but fuck it you tore me apart
I cannot hide, I've been hiding in the dark
All my life, scratching and tearing apart
What's inside, hating and burning my heart
All this time, wasted and changing the parts
Of my mind, doing these drugs just so I could be
blind, fuck being sober, I love being high, fuck you but why, hate you but I love you won't lie, I'm lost in it