Jackorider - OLD (prod. eeryskies)
[Lyrics]
In my recent days i’ve been depressed some more
Yeah my hearts been sore while my souls been low down oh my lord
Every day is cold every night is short
Since i sleep all day i don't feel that old
I just wanna get my spirits back up to fine sometime
But until i do that i'm just gonna kick back
And feel unmotivated to shower for several days
Skip class fuck math ima sleep in cause i feel drained
Plus i hate my fucking self and i hate my fucking face
Like a sense of self loathe in a crowd of deceased greats
Im stuck in an cycle of nothing but fucking pain
Got the razor to my skin to see the bloody river drain
Then i drink it all up like a sadistic twisted game
And no one will understand but think im just fucking insane
Just take a look at me, and tell me what do you see
Do you see a person with the brain of a genius king
Do you see someone thats crazy or normal with oddities
Do you see a narcissistic maniac that kills kitties
I wanna know just what you think yeah what you really think of me
Cause im insecure as fuck and really care bout what you think
I know that i really seem like i am comfortable as me
But do you really think someone as weird as me is fine with me
In my recent days i’ve been depressed like woah
And my hearts getting cold while the night get short
Every day is long everyday is a bore
So i sleep all day Yet i'm still getting old
I just wanna feel fine sometime
And honestly i’m feeling so damn confused
Running round in circles like i got no clues
Write a little ditty that sounds like the blues
Record it then release to get millions of views
Or a couple 50 for those that like my tunes
Hopefully i'll make it big and be on all of the news
Or maybe i'll grow up to be an evil evil child
With nobody but myself and all the worms within my smile
I'm just really really scared of what i will become
I'm just scared that i'll have no one there to give me love
So i wanna make it big so i can have everyone
Screaming out loud my name and reciting my songs
Since i say that this pain that comes straight from my heart
It would mean so much to me so won’t you play that once more
I’ve been hacking at it so hard just tryna find a cure
But the music brings me closer to finally being whole
In my recent days i’ve been smoking more
Yeah my lungs look gray but my heart beats strong
And i’m feeling great tryna not feel sore
Tryna work all day so when i get old
I’ll be fine i’ll be fine