I failed today and I'm Learning it's ok
Complete and total lock up thats what today was I failed hard. I couldn't put myself together at all I'm teaching myself it's ok I feel so horrible when I lock up like a bigger failure than I already am. I feel so horrible some days I spend so much time alone it hurts I miss having him around a wall to bounce things off of. It's a wall I want to get passed so badly I've asked for help and just to have someone just be there as I go together to make it hurt less but im left with me and my thoughts I need to learn to love myself more and not to let the loneliness make me lash out at myself and others. I hate how I feel right now so much. I need to change it it's going to take work but I need to learn that everyone has their own lives to live and not to expect anything from anyone even if it's their word it gets hopes up the only person I can truly depend on is me. And with god at my back and in my heart I can do anything
Lord please give me the strength to get what needs to be done done and the strength to not let the pain crumble me. I need you in my life lord I hate feeling so alone in it all please lord work in my life and help me to care about myself more. Lord please guide my hands and help me to get it all taken care of lord. Please help me. Lord please bless my wife and thank you for everything in my life thank you for growing the channel thank you for tge breath in my lungs and my health lord. I love you so much lord! In Jesus name I pray Amen!
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