Loving You ll 6
[Demi's POV]
Danni and Joe walk in to my hospital room and just look at me, I was ashamed of the way they would think of me for not thinking of Nicholas but I couldnt look after him, I couldnt look after myself let alone a baby. Nick would be ashamed of me right now but if he was still here none of this would have happened
"Demi I- I dont know what to say, I thought you were handling things" Danni starts off by saying
"I did handle things but I screwed up. I cant do it anymore. I cant live without Nick"
"But yo-"
"I have a baby I know. I know that but I cant take care of myself, I definitely cant take care of him."
"You just need time" Joe says. I look at him and I see the hurt in his eyes
"Time doesnt heal everything Joe"
"I'll take care of him Demi, until your ready. You will be ready. You'll be an amazing mom I know that. You cant give him up. Nick wouldnt want that"
"Nick this and Nick that. I know what he would want. If he was here none of this would have happened, we would be happy but Im not happy, I cant be happy"
"Demi I think you need help" Danni says
"Rehab" I say "I know, the doctors are transferring me over to rehab when im out of here"
"Will you say goodbye to Nicholas?" Joe asks looking at me with hope in his eyes for the first time since he came in here. I nod.
Joe comes back alone this time with Nicholas. I take Nicholas into my arms as tear roll down my cheeks
"Im so sorry" I say to him "I love you so much but mommy has to go away for a while, I'll be back before you know it. I promise and i'll be the best mom ever" I say handing him back to Joe. I smile slightly as I see Joe holding him. The way Joe looked at him was priceless "You'll be good for him Joe, your the one person I would want to look after him"
"I wont let him out of my sight" He says "Are you ready?"
"Yeah" I sigh "Im doing this for Nicholas"
"Thats a good start" Joe takes my hand in his and walks us outside to where a car is waiting
"Your not taking me"
"No but I will call. They said they will let me know when I can visit. I hope its real soon"
"Me too" I whisper "goodbye Joe, take care of him"
"I will" He says "You'll be back before you know it"
"I hope so"
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